perfect love casts out fear

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, for fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. We love Him because He first loved us." 1 John 4:18-19

Mornings are hardest

 The mornings are hardest. Waking out of a dream, having to face reality and uncertainty and deadlines and dreaded silence. 

Lord God, restore my childlike faith. So thankful for these little guys reminding me what’s most important.

Gotta take time to breathe and reach down, deep down, and touch that joy again - the one that never fades. That joy of knowing Jesus now and forever.

“He’s higher than a skyscraper

And deeper than a submarine

He’s wider than the universe

And beyond my wildest dreams

And He’s known me and He’s loved me

Since before the world began

How wonderful to be a part of God’s amazing plan.”

~ Our God is a great big God

These snapshots from the park a few days ago - so good for the soul ✨

What's behind a smile?

What’s behind a smile?

Maybe you go to sleep shaking with anxiety or wake up every morning to cry. It’s worse some mornings more than others. You work yourself up, you laugh you talk but inside you’re caving in and outside you're stuck in the tedium of of deadlines and word counts while everyone else seems to be stepping into something much more profound and beautiful. I'm happy for you, I'm so happy for you. But then you come back here. To your phone. To the bedhead. Waiting for something, anything. What you do find, when you do find something, is something that creates even more uncertainty and puzzlement. But most of all the silence is slowly poisoning your veins and you feel it even though it’s unspoken: rejection. Why do hearts seem to go one way when you know it’s a no through road. A dead end. Still travels stubbornly towards something only it can see, a dying ember, while the rest of you is screaming it’s not gonna work. 

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I’m thankful that my God gives me joy that’s deeper than the flood of tears and His Spirit brings me back to that childlike faith and communion with Jesus my Lord. He meets me right here, right in the mess that I can't even articulate. It’s not easy it never is but God’s bigger than all of this. I look up to the skies and smile because the God who made all that, who's bigger than all that, is looking out for me.

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What do you do when something bigger than you falls into your lap? 

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Striving to be a woman who can throw her head back and laugh with pure joy and wonder and assurance—such deep assurance from His overflowing grace—yes, to laugh at the days to come.

fight the blues

those little things that make you smile

those prayers answered so unexpectedly

the way of waiting is not always wearisome

the joy of the Lord is my strength

He colours my world

He rejuvenates my life

I wait on Him

For all things to come to completion