Released.

Released. Is this what it feels like? I feel like how i felt back at that crusaders conference when i was in year 8. Just so free at the thought and the sound and the taste of God's love. Free to declare it. Free to pray big prayers. Big confident passionate prayers without being embarrassed about it. Just go out there are do it. Just go for it. Cos God is with me. It's not about the head any more. It's about the heart. And i feel liberated to love Christ more and serve Him refreshed and excited about what He's gonna do and how He's gonna work. What miracles He will do and what revelations He will give. It's really exciting. I'm that girl under the stars again at the end of Year 8. I'm that girl lying awake in the middle of the night in Christchurch NZ six years ago, lying awestruck at the wonder of God. I'm no longer trapped in the cage of my own emotional trauma and despair...I was trapped in there by my own devices for three years trying to put my hope in a human master when my heavenly Master was telling me I'm already free to trust Him and serve Him. But i was just holding onto the lies that my own flesh and Satan were feeding me. I was clinging to emotion rather than letting the Word transform my emotions. I was trying to give it to God but my mind and heart were in constant conflict, perpetual struggle and i was just wearing myself out.
But God has freed me. Thank you thank you Lord.
He's delivered me, He does deliver me and I trust He will deliver me still.
Lord Jesus I love you so.

9/1/17 1:30am