Ever done something a little bold and crazy and out of the blue?
Or should I say out of the blues. Cause that's what I was falling into till I made the crazy leap last minute. I basically 180 degree turned around from everything I'd been preparing myself for for the last three months. And there is a literal dimension to being so last minute, but I won't go into too many details.
It's funny when you set your mind on something and it seems so right and clear, even though you know it's going to be painful. But there's a part of you that still dreams.
Kind of like Arwen, on the passage to leave Middle Earth and sail to the Undying Lands, but a vision of a future almost gone turns her completely around. And she's gonna fight for it because it is not lost.
There's a reality in that dream, and maybe it's not as far away as everyone else might say it is.
No, I didn't get a vision or anything like that. But I've had some enlightening conversations lately that did make me somewhat turn from what I had previously decided, and right now I just need to throw myself into the safe arms of my Heavenly Father, because I know He's unfolding His rich and glorious plan for my life and He'll use both my action and inaction for His purposes. I just need the wisdom to know what action to take. But sometimes the line between wisdom and folly gets clouded by feelings and thoughts. I can see how God used my spontaneous moment of crazy, for which I had my own feeble imaginings of how it would turn out, and He turned it into a far greater testimony and answer to the prayer of other saints, a little disappointment encased in a more profound purpose and unveiling of what gifts of kindness and patience and hope in God that I could offer to bless others, rather than what gifts I might receive to satisfy my temporal needs. It's better to give than to receive. God is teaching me that - through my foolishness and desires for this and that, He's letting His wisdom shine through.
Oh God, please and revive and restore and orchestrate in Your own wonderful way the way things are meant to be. I am your humble vessel. I feel everything keenly. But I see how you work through me, to bring me out of the blues and into the view of You through the Cross. Always bring me back to You just like you did this week.
